汤母 · 索亚历险记 | The Adventures of Tom Sawyer

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最后,昏昏然的气氛被打破了——而且打破得很彻底:那起谋杀案在法庭上公开审理 了。这事立即成了全镇人谈论的热门话题。汤姆无法摆脱这件事。每逢有人提及这起谋杀 案,他就心为之悸,因为他那不安的良心和极度的恐惧几乎使他相信,人家是故意说给他 听,探探他的“口风”;他不明白,别人怎么会怀疑自己了解这个案情,但听了这些议论, 他总是不能够泰然处之。这些话让他不停地打寒噤。他把哈克拉到一个僻静处,同他谈了这 件事。能暂时地倾吐一下心结,和另一个同样受折磨的人共同分担一下忧愁,这对汤姆来 说,多少算是点安慰。而且,他想搞清楚,哈克是否始终没把这个秘密泄露出去。 “哈克,你曾经跟什么人说起过——那件事吗?” “什么事情?” “明知故问。” “哦——当然没说过。” “一句也没说过吗?” “一个字也没说过,我发誓。你问这个干吗?” “唉,我很害怕。” “嘿,汤姆·索亚,一旦秘密泄露,我们连两天也活不成。这你知道。” 汤姆觉得心里踏实多了。停了一会,他说: “哈克,要是他们逼你招供,你怎么办?” “逼我招供?嘿,除非我想被那个混帐王八蛋活活淹死,我才会招供。否则,他们绝办 不到。” “好吧,这样就没事了。我想只要咱们守口如瓶,就可保安然无恙。但是,让咱们再发 一回誓吧。这样更牢靠些。” “我赞成。” 于是他们又非常严肃认真地发了一回誓。 “大家都在议论些什么事,哈克?我听到的多得一塌糊涂呀!” “什么事?嗐,还不是莫夫·波特、莫夫·波特、莫夫·波特,没完没了。这些话让人 直冒冷汗,我想找个地方躲一躲。” “我也有同感。我想他算是完了。你是不是有时候也为他感到难过?” “差不多经常为他难过——经常是这样。他不算什么人物;但他从来没做过什么伤天害 理的事情。不过是钓钓鱼,去卖钱来换酒大喝一通——常到处闲逛;可是,老天,咱们也没 少干这些事啊——起码咱们多半都是这样——连布道的人也不例外。但是他心眼好——有一 次,我钓的鱼不够两个人分,他还给了我半条鱼;还有好多次,我运气不佳的时候,他都没 少帮忙。” “哎,哈克,他帮我修过风筝,还帮我把鱼钩系在竿子上。 我希望我们能把他救出来。” “哎呀!汤姆,那可使不得。况且,救出来也不济于事; 他们还会再把他抓回去。” “是呀——他们会再把他抓回去。可是,我讨厌听到他们骂他是魔鬼,其实他根本没干 ——那件事。” “我也一样,汤姆。老天爷,我听到他们骂他是全国头一号恶棍,他们还说他为什么从 前没被绞死呢。” “对,他们一直都是这么骂的。我还听人说,要是他被放出来,他们就偷偷结果掉他。” “他们真的会那么干。” 两个孩子谈了很久,可并没有得到什么安慰。天色向晚,他俩来到那偏僻的小牢房附近 转悠,心里存着不太明确的希望,希望能发生什么意外之事,来帮他们排忧解难。但是,什 么事也没发生;似乎没什么天使神仙对这倒霉的囚犯感兴趣。 这两个孩子还是像从前那样——走到牢房的窗户那儿,给波特递进去一点烟叶和火柴。 他被关在第一层,没有看守。 他非常感激他俩给他送好东西,这更让他俩的良心不安起来——这一次,像把刀似的深 深刺进他们心里。当波特打开话匣时,他俩觉得自己极其胆小怕事,是个十足的叛徒。他说: “孩子们,你们对我太好了——比镇上任何其他的人都好。我不会忘记的,我忘不了。 我常自个儿唸叨着:‘我过去常常给镇上的孩子们修理风筝之类的玩具,告诉他们什么地方 钓鱼最好,尽力和他们交朋友。但现在波特老头遭难了,他们就把他给忘了;可是啊,汤姆 没有忘,哈克也没有忘——只有他俩没有忘记他。'我说:‘我也不会忘记他们。'啊,孩 子们,我干了件可怕的事情——当时我喝醉了,神志不清——我只能这么解释——现在,我 要因此事而被吊死,这是应该的。我想,是应该的,也是最好的——我反倒希望被吊死。 哦,咱们不谈这事了吧。我不想让你们伤心难过;你们对我这么好,但是,我想对你们说的 就是,你们千万不能酗酒啊——这样,你们就不会被关到这里了。你们再往西站一点——对 ——就这样;一个人遭此不幸,还能看到对他友好的面孔,真是莫大的安慰啊。现在,除了 你们,再也没有人来看我了。多么友好的脸蛋——多友好啊。你们俩一个爬到另一个背上, 让我摸摸你们的脸吧。好了。咱们握握手吧——你们的手可以从窗户缝中伸进来,我的手太 大不行。这么小的手,没多大力气——可就是这小手帮了莫夫·波特很大的忙,要是能帮上 更大的忙,也会帮的呀。” 汤姆悲痛地回到家里,当夜做了很多恶梦。第二天和第三天,他在法院外面转来转去, 心里有种无法克制的冲动,想闯进去,可他还是强迫自己留在外面。哈克也有同样的经历。 他们故意相互回避着。他们时常从那里走开,可是又都被这件惨案吸引回来。每当有旁听的 人从法庭出来,汤姆就侧着耳朵细听,但听到的消息都令人忧心忡忡——法网越来越无情地 罩向可怜的莫夫·波特身上。第二天快结束的时候,镇上传言,印第安·乔的证据确凿无 疑,陪审团如何裁决此案是明摆着的了。 那天夜里,汤姆很晚才回来,他从窗子里爬进来上床睡觉。由于极度兴奋,过了好几个 小时他才睡着。次晨,镇上所有的人成群结队地向法院走去,因为今天是个不平常的日子。 听众席上挤满了人,男女各占一半。人们等了很久,陪审团才一个接着一个入场就座;不一 会,波特带着手铐被押了进来,他面色苍白,一脸憔悴,神情羞怯,一副听天由命的样子。 他坐的地方很显眼,全场好奇的人都能看得见。印第安·乔也同样地引人注目,他还是和先 前一样不露声色。又过了一会,法官驾到,执法官就宣布开庭。接着,就听见律师们惯例式 地低头接耳和收拾文件的声音。这些细节和随后的耽搁给人们一种准备开庭的印象,它既让 人印象深刻同时又令人着迷。 现在,一个证人被带上来。他作证说在谋杀案发生的那天清晨,他看见莫夫·波特在河 里洗澡,并且很快就溜掉了。 原告律师问了一会,说: “问讯证人。” 犯人抬眼看了一会,然后又低下了眼睛。这时他的辩护律师说: “我没有问题要问。” 第二个证人证明,他曾在被害人尸体附近发现了那把刀。 原告律师说: “问讯证人。” 波特的律师说:“我没有问题要问。” 第三个证人发誓说,他常常看见波特带着那把刀。 “问讯证人。” 波特的律师拒绝向这个证人提问。看得出听众们开始恼火了。难道这个辩护律师不打算 作任何努力,就把他的当事人性命给断送掉吗? 有几个证人都作证说当波特被带到凶杀现场时,他表现出了畏罪行为。被告的律师没有 盘问他们一句,就允许他们退出了证人席。 在场的人对那天早上坟地里发生的悲剧都记忆犹新。现在宣过誓的证人把一个一个的细 节都讲了出来,不过他们无一受到波特律师的盘问。全场一片低语声,表达了人们的困惑和 不满的情绪,结果引起了法官的一阵申斥。于是,原告律师说: “诸位公民宣誓作证,言简意赅不容置疑,据此,我们认定这起可怕的谋杀案,毫无疑 问,系被告席上这个不幸的犯人所为。本案取证到此结束。” 可怜的莫夫呻吟了一声,他双手捂脸,来回轻轻地摇晃着身子,与此同时法庭上一片寂 静,令人痛苦。许多男人都被感动了,女人们也掉下了同情的眼泪。这时,辩护律师站起身 来,说: “法官大人,本庭审讯之初,我们的所言就涵盖了开庭审讯之目的,我们曾力图证明我 言外之意:我的当事人喝了酒,所以在神志不清的情况下干了这件可怕的事情。现在我改变 了主意,我申请撤回那篇辩护词。”然后他对书记员说:“传汤姆·索亚!” 在场的每一个人都莫名其妙,惊诧不已;连波特也不例外。当汤姆站起来,走到证人席 上的时候,人们都怀着极大的兴趣迷惑不解地盯着他。这孩子因为受到过分惊吓,看起来有 点不能自制。他宣了誓。 “汤姆·索亚,6月17日大约半夜时分,你在什么地方?” 看见印第安·乔那张冷酷的脸,汤姆舌头僵住了,讲不出话来。听众们屏息敛气静听, 可是话还是没有说出来。然而,过了几分钟,这孩子恢复了一点气力,勉强提高了声音,但 仍然只有部分人能听清楚他的话: “在坟地!” “请你稍微大点声。别害怕。你是在……” “在坟地。” 印第安·乔的脸上迅速地闪过一丝嘲弄的微笑。 “你是在霍斯·威廉斯的坟墓附近的什么地方吗?” “是的,先生。” “大点声——再稍微大点声。距离有多远?” “就像我离您这么远。” “你是不是藏起来了?” “是藏起来了。” “什么地方?” “藏在坟边的几棵榆树后面。” 印第安·乔吃了一惊,别人几乎没有察觉到。 “还有别人吗?” “有,先生。我是和……” “别忙——等一下。你不要提及你同伴的名字。我们在适当的时候,会传问他的。你到 那里去,带着什么东西吗?” 汤姆犹豫着,不知所措。 “说出来吧,孩子——别害怕。说真话总是让人敬佩的。 带了什么去的?” “就带了一只——呃——一只死猫。” 人们一阵哄笑。法官把他们喝止住了。 “我们会把那只死猫的残骸拿来给大家看的。现在,孩子,你把当时发生的事说出来— —照实说——什么也别说漏掉,别害怕。” 汤姆开始说了——起初有些吞吞吐吐,可是渐渐地喜欢这个话题了,于是,就越说越流 畅自如;没过多么,除了他在说话外别无其它声音,每双眼睛都在盯着他;人们张着嘴,屏 住呼吸,兴致盎然地听他讲述着这个传奇般的经历,一点都没注意到时间,都被这个恐怖而 又魅力十足的历险吸引住了。 说到后来,汤姆心中积压的情感一下子迸发出来,他说: “……医生一挥那木牌,莫夫·波特就应声倒在地上,印第安·乔拿着刀,跳过来,狠 狠就是一下……” “哗啦!”那个混帐闪电一般,朝窗口窜去,冲开所有阻挡他的人,跑了!

A SPLENDID Midsummer shone over England: skies so pure, suns so radiant as were then seen in long succession, seldom favour even singly, our wave-girt land. It was as if a band of Italian days had come from the South, like a flock of glorious passenger birds, and lighted to rest them on the cliffs of Albion. The hay was all got in; the fields round Thornfield were green and shorn; the roads white and baked; the trees were in their dark prime; hedge and wood, full-leaved and deeply tinted, contrasted well with the sunny hue of the cleared meadows between.

On Midsummer-eve, Adele, weary with gathering wild strawberries in Hay Lane half the day, had gone to bed with the sun. I watched her drop asleep, and when I left her, I sought the garden.

It was now the sweetest hour of the twenty-four:- 'Day its fervid fires had wasted,' and dew fell cool on panting plain and scorched summit. Where the sun had gone down in simple state- pure of the pomp of clouds- spread a solemn purple, burning with the light of red jewel and furnace flame at one point, on one hill-peak, and extending high and wide, soft and still softer, over half heaven.

The east had its own charm of fine deep blue, and its own modest gem, a rising and solitary star: soon it would boast the moon; but she was yet beneath the horizon.

I walked a while on the pavement; but a subtle, well-known scent- that of a cigar- stole from some window; I saw the library casement open a hand-breadth; I knew I might be watched thence; so I went apart into the orchard. No nook in the grounds more sheltered and more Eden-like; it was full of trees, it bloomed with flowers: a very high wall shut it out from the court, on one side; on the other, a beech avenue screened it from the lawn. At the bottom was a sunk fence; its sole separation from lonely fields: a winding walk, bordered with laurels and terminating in a giant horse-chestnut, circled at the base by a seat, led down to the fence. Here one could wander unseen. While such honey-dew fell, such silence reigned, such gloaming gathered, I felt as if I could haunt such shade for ever; but in threading the flower and fruit parterres at the upper part of the enclosure, enticed there by the light the now rising moon cast on this more open quarter, my step is stayed-not by sound, not by sight, but once more by a warning fragrance.

Sweet-briar and southernwood, jasmine, pink, and rose have long been yielding their evening sacrifice of incense: this new scent is neither of shrub nor flower; it is- I know it well- it is Mr. Rochester's cigar. I look round and I listen. I see trees laden with ripening fruit. I hear a nightingale warbling in a wood half a mile off; no moving form is visible, no coming step audible; but that perfume increases: I must flee. I make for the wicket leading to the shrubbery, and I see Mr. Rochester entering. I step aside into the ivy recess; he will not stay long: he will soon return whence he came, and if I sit still he will never see me.

But no- eventide is as pleasant to him as to me, and this antique garden as attractive; and he strolls on, now lifting the gooseberry-tree branches to look at the fruit, large as plums, with which they are laden; now taking a ripe cherry from the wall; now stooping towards a knot of flowers, either to inhale their fragrance or to admire the dew-beads on their petals. A great moth goes humming by me; it alights on a plant at Mr. Rochester's foot: he sees it, and bends to examine it.

'Now, he has his back towards me,' thought I, 'and he is occupied too; perhaps, if I walk softly, I can slip away unnoticed.'

I trode on an edging of turf that the crackle of the pebbly gravel might not betray me: he was standing among the beds at a yard or two distant from where I had to pass; the moth apparently engaged him. 'I shall get by very well,' I meditated. As I crossed his shadow, thrown long over the garden by the moon, not yet risen high, he said quietly, without turning-

'Jane, come and look at this fellow.'

I had made no noise: he had not eyes behind- could his shadow feel?

I started at first, and then I approached him.

'Look at his wings,' said he, 'he reminds me rather of a West Indian insect; one does not often see so large and gay a night-rover in England; there! he is flown.'

The moth roamed away. I was sheepishly retreating also; but Mr. Rochester followed me, and when we reached the wicket, he said- 'Turn back: on so lovely a night it is a shame to sit in the house; and surely no one can wish to go to bed while sunset is thus at meeting with moonrise.'

It is one of my faults, that though my tongue is sometimes prompt enough at an answer, there are times when it sadly fails me in framing an excuse; and always the lapse occurs at some crisis, when a facile word or plausible pretext is specially wanted to get me out of painful embarrassment. I did not like to walk at this hour alone with Mr. Rochester in the shadowy orchard; but I could not find a reason to allege for leaving him. I followed with lagging step, and thoughts busily bent on discovering a means of extrication; but he himself looked so composed and so grave also, I became ashamed of feeling any confusion: the evil- if evil existent or prospective there was- seemed to lie with me only; his mind was unconscious and quiet.

'Jane,' he recommenced, as we entered the laurel walk, and slowly strayed down in the direction of the sunk fence and the horse-chestnut, 'Thornfield is a pleasant place in summer, is it not?'

'Yes, sir.'

'You must have become in some degree attached to the house,- you, who have an eye for natural beauties, and a good deal of the organ of Adhesiveness?'

'I am attached to it, indeed.'

'And though I don't comprehend how it is, I perceive you have acquired a degree of regard for that foolish little child Adele, too; and even for simple dame Fairfax?'

'Yes, sir; in different ways, I have an affection for both.'

'And would be sorry to part with them?'

'Yes.'

'Pity!' he said, and sighed and paused. 'It is always the way of events in this life,' he continued presently: 'no sooner have you got settled in a pleasant resting-place, than a voice calls out to you to rise and move on, for the hour of repose is expired.'

'Must I move on, sir?' I asked. 'Must I leave Thornfield?'

'I believe you must, Jane. I am sorry, Janet, but I believe indeed you must.'

This was a blow: but I did not let it prostrate me.

'Well, sir, I shall be ready when the order to march comes.'

'It is come now- I must give it to-night.'

'Then you are going to be married, sir?'

'Ex-act-ly- pre-cise-ly: with your usual acuteness, you have hit the nail straight on the head.'

'Soon, sir?'

'Very soon, my- that is, Miss Eyre: and you'll remember, Jane, the first time I, or Rumour, plainly intimated to you that it was my intention to put my old bachelor's neck into the sacred noose, to enter into the holy estate of matrimony- to take Miss Ingram to my bosom, in short (she's an extensive armful: but that's not to the point- one can't have too much of such a very excellent thing as my beautiful Blanche): well, as I was saying- listen to me, Jane!

You're not turning your head to look after more moths, are you? That was only a lady-clock, child, "flying away home." I wish to remind you that it was you who first said to me, with that discretion I respect in you- with that foresight, prudence, and humility which befit your responsible and dependent position- that in case I married Miss Ingram, both you and little Adele had better trot forthwith. I pass over the sort of slur conveyed in this suggestion on the character of my beloved; indeed, when you are far away, Janet, I'll try to forget it: I shall notice only its wisdom; which is such that I have made it my law of action. Adele must go to school; and you, Miss Eyre, must get a new situation.'

'Yes, sir, I will advertise immediately: and meantime, I suppose-' I was going to say, 'I suppose I may stay here, till I find another shelter to betake myself to': but I stopped, feeling it would not do to risk a long sentence, for my voice was not quite under command.

'In about a month I hope to be a bridegroom,' continued Mr. Rochester; 'and in the interim, I shall myself look out for employment and an asylum for you.'

'Thank you, sir; I am sorry to give-'

'Oh, no need to apologise! I consider that when a dependant does her duty as well as you have done yours, she has a sort of claim upon her employer for any little assistance he can conveniently render her; indeed I have already, through my future mother-in-law, heard of a place that I think will suit: it is to undertake the education of the five daughters of Mrs. Dionysius O'Gall of Bitternutt Lodge, Connaught, Ireland. You'll like Ireland, I think: they're such warmhearted people there, they say.'

'It is a long way off, sir.'

'No matter- a girl of your sense will not object to the voyage or the distance.'

'Not the voyage, but the distance: and then the sea is a barrier-'

'From what, Jane?'

'From England and from Thornfield: and-'

'Well?'

'From you, sir.'

I said this almost involuntarily, and, with as little sanction of free will, my tears gushed out. I did not cry so as to be heard, however; I avoided sobbing. The thought of Mrs. O'Gall and Bitternutt Lodge struck cold to my heart; and colder the thought of all the brine and foam, destined, as it seemed, to rush between me and the master at whose side I now walked, and coldest the remembrance of the wider ocean- wealth, caste, custom intervened between me and what I naturally and inevitably loved.

'It is a long way,' I again said.

'It is, to be sure; and when you get to Bitternutt Lodge, Connaught, Ireland, I shall never see you again, Jane: that's morally certain. I never go over to Ireland, not having myself much of a fancy for the country. We have been good friends, Jane; have we not?'

'Yes, sir.'

'And when friends are on the eve of separation, they like to spend the little time that remains to them close to each other.

Come! we'll talk over the voyage and the parting quietly half an hour or so, while the stars enter into their shining life up in heaven yonder: here is the chestnut tree: here is the bench at its old roots.

Come, we will sit there in peace to-night, though we should never more be destined to sit there together.' He seated me and himself.

'It is a long way to Ireland, Janet, and I am sorry to send my little friend on such weary travels: but if I can't do better, how is it to be helped? Are you anything akin to me, do you think, Jane?'

I could risk no sort of answer by this time: my heart was still.

'Because,' he said, 'I sometimes have a queer feeling with regard to you- especially when you are near me, as now: it is as if I had a string somewhere under my left ribs, tightly and inextricably knotted to a similar string situated in the corresponding quarter of your little frame. And if that boisterous Channel and two hundred miles or so of land come broad between us, I am afraid that cord of communion will be snapt; and then I've a nervous notion I should take to bleeding inwardly. As for you,- you'd forget me.'

'That I never should, sir: you know-' Impossible to proceed.

'Jane, do you hear that nightingale singing in the wood? Listen!'

In listening, I sobbed convulsively; for I could repress what I endured no longer; I was obliged to yield, and I was shaken from head to foot with acute distress. When I did speak, it was only to express an impetuous wish that I had never been born, or never come to Thornfield.

'Because you are sorry to leave it?'

The vehemence of emotion, stirred by grief and love within me, was claiming mastery, and struggling for full sway, and asserting a right to predominate, to overcome, to live, rise, and reign at last: yes,- and to speak.

'I grieve to leave Thornfield: I love Thornfield:- I love it, because I have lived in it a full and delightful life,- momentarily at least. I have not been trampled on. I have not been petrified. I have not been buried with inferior minds, and excluded from every glimpse of communion with what is bright and energetic and high. I have talked, face to face, with what I reverence, with what I delight in,- with an original, a vigorous, an expanded mind. I have known you, Mr. Rochester; and it strikes me with terror and anguish to feel I absolutely must be torn from you for ever. I see the necessity of departure; and it is like looking on the necessity of death.'

'Where do you see the necessity?' he asked suddenly.

'Where? You, sir, have placed it before me.'

'In what shape?'

'In the shape of Miss Ingram; a noble and beautiful woman,- your bride.'

'My bride! What bride? I have no bride!'

'But you will have.'

'Yes;- I will!'- I will!' He set his teeth.

'Then I must go:- you have said it yourself.'

'No: you must stay! I swear it- and the oath shall be kept.'

'I tell you I must go!' I retorted, roused to something like passion. 'Do you think I can stay to become nothing to you? Do you think I am an automaton?- a machine without feelings? and can bear to have my morsel of bread snatched from my lips, and my drop of living water dashed from my cup? Do you think, because I am poor, obscure, plain, and little, I am soulless and heartless? You think wrong!- I have as much soul as you,- and full as much heart! And if God had gifted me with some beauty and much wealth, I should have made it as hard for you to leave me, as it is now for me to leave you. I am not talking to you now through the medium of custom, conventionalities, nor even of mortal flesh;- it is my spirit that addresses your spirit; just as if both had passed through the grave, and we stood at God's feet, equal,- as we are!'

'As we are!' repeated Mr. Rochester- 'so,' he added, enclosing me in his arms, gathering me to his breast, pressing his lips on my lips:

'so, Jane!'

'Yes, so, sir,' I rejoined: 'and yet not so; for you are a married man- or as good as a married man, and wed to one inferior to you- to one with whom you have no sympathy- whom I do not believe you truly love; for I have seen and heard you sneer at her. I would scorn such a union: therefore I am better than you- let me go!'

'Where, Jane? To Ireland?'

'Yes- to Ireland. I have spoken my mind, and can go anywhere now.'

'Jane, be still; don't struggle so, like a wild frantic bird that is rending its own plumage in its desperation.'

'I am no bird; and no net ensnares me; I am a free human being with an independent will, which I now exert to leave you.'

Another effort set me at liberty, and I stood erect before him.

'And your will shall decide your destiny,' he said: 'I offer you my hand, my heart, and a share of all my possessions.'

'You play a farce, which I merely laugh at.'

'I ask you to pass through life at my side- to be my second self, and best earthly companion.'

'For that fate you have already made your choice, and must abide by it.'

'Jane, be still a few moments: you are over-excited: I will be still too.'

A waft of wind came sweeping down the laurel-walk and trembled through the boughs of the chestnut: it wandered away- away- to an indefinite distance- it died. The nightingale's song was then the only voice of the hour: in listening to it, I again wept. Mr. Rochester sat

quiet, looking at me gently and seriously. Some time passed before he spoke; he at last said-

'Come to my side, Jane, and let us explain and understand one another.'

'I will never again come to your side: I am torn away now, and cannot return.'

'But, Jane, I summon you as my wife: it is you only I intend to marry.'

I was silent: I thought he mocked me.

'Come, Jane- come hither.'

'Your bride stands between us.'

He rose, and with a stride reached me.

'My bride is here,' he said, again drawing me to him, 'because my equal is here, and my likeness. Jane, will you marry me?'

Still I did not answer, and still I writhed myself from his grasp: for I was still incredulous.

'Do you doubt me, Jane?'

'Entirely.'

'You have no faith in me?'

'Not a whit.'

'Am I a liar in your eyes?' he asked passionately. 'Little sceptic, you shall be convinced. What love have I for Miss Ingram? None: and that you know. What love has she for me? None: as I have taken pains to prove: I caused a rumour to reach her that my fortune was not a third of what was supposed, and after that I presented myself to see the result; it was coldness both from her and her mother. I would not- I could not- marry Miss Ingram. You- you strange, you almost unearthly thing!- I love as my own flesh. You- poor and obscure, and small and plain as you are- I entreat to accept me as a husband.'

'What, me!' I ejaculated, beginning in his earnestness- and especially in his incivility- to credit his sincerity: 'me who have not a friend in the world but you- if you are my friend: not a shilling but what you have given me?'

'You, Jane, I must have you for my own- entirely my own. Will you be mine? Say yes, quickly.'

'Mr. Rochester, let me look at your face: turn to the moonlight.'

'Why?'

'Because I want to read your countenance- turn!'

'There! you will find it scarcely more legible than a crumpled, scratched page. Read on: only make haste, for I suffer.'

His face was very much agitated and very much flushed, and there were strong workings in the features, and strange gleams in the eyes.

'Oh, Jane, you torture me!' he exclaimed. 'With that searching and yet faithful and generous look, you torture me!'

'How can I do that? If you are true, and your offer real, my only feelings to you must be gratitude and devotion- they cannot torture.'

'Gratitude!' he ejaculated; and added wildly- 'Jane, accept me quickly. Say, Edward- give me my name- Edward- I will marry you.'

'Are you in earnest? Do you truly love me? Do you sincerely wish me to be your wife?'

'I do; and if an oath is necessary to satisfy you, I swear it.'

'Then, sir, I will marry you.'

'Edward- my little wife!'

'Dear Edward!'

'Come to me- come to me entirely now,' said he; and added, in his deepest tone, speaking in my ear as his cheek was laid on mine, 'Make my happiness- I will make yours.'

'God pardon me!' he subjoined ere long; 'and man meddle not with me: I have her, and will hold her.'

'There is no one to meddle, sir. I have no kindred to interfere.'

'No- that is the best of it,' he said. And if I had loved him less I should have thought his accent and look of exultation savage; but, sitting by him, roused from the nightmare of parting- called to the paradise of union- I thought only of the bliss given me to drink in so abundant a flow. Again and again he said, 'Are you happy, Jane?'

And again and again I answered, 'Yes,' After which he murmured, 'It will atone- it will atone. Have I not found her friendless, and cold, and comfortless? Will I not guard, and cherish, and solace her? Is there not love in my heart, and constancy in my resolves? It will expiate at God's tribunal. I know my Maker sanctions what I do.

For the world's judgment- I wash my hands thereof. For man's opinion- I defy it.'

But what had befallen the night? The moon was not yet set, and we were all in shadow: I could scarcely see my master's face, near as I was. And what ailed the chestnut tree? it writhed and groaned; while wind roared in the laurel walk, and came sweeping over us.

'We must go in,' said Mr. Rochester: 'the weather changes. I could have sat with thee till morning, Jane.'

'And so,' thought I, 'could I with you.' I should have said so, perhaps, but a livid, vivid spark leapt out of a cloud at which I was looking, and there was a crack, a crash, and a close rattling peal; and I thought only of hiding my dazzled eyes against Mr. Rochester's shoulder.

The rain rushed down. He hurried me up the walk, through the grounds, and into the house; but we were quite wet before we could pass the threshold. He was taking off my shawl in the hall, and shaking the water out of my loosened hair, when Mrs. Fairfax emerged from her room. I did not observe her at first, nor did Mr. Rochester. The lamp was lit. The dock was on the stroke of twelve.

'Hasten to take off your wet things,' said he; 'and before you go, good-night- good-night, my darling!'

He kissed me repeatedly. When I looked up, on leaving his arms, there stood the widow, pale, grave, and amazed. I only smiled at her, and ran upstairs. 'Explanation will do for another time,' thought I. Still, when I reached my chamber, I felt a pang at the idea she should even temporarily misconstrue what she had seen. But joy soon effaced every other feeling; and loud as the wind blew, near and deep as the thunder crashed, fierce and frequent as the lightning gleamed, cataract-like as the rain fell during a storm of two hours' duration, I experienced no fear and little awe. Mr. Rochester came thrice to my door in the course of it, to ask if I was safe and tranquil: and that was comfort, that was strength for anything.

Before I left my bed in the morning, little Adele came running in to tell me that the great horse-chestnut at the bottom of the orchard had been struck by lightning in the night, and half of it split away.

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